NO COMPUTER

A few weeks ago by laptop crashed. And for that I have been without any reliable source of internet. The one computer that is in my basement is just too darn slow for me.

I gotta save up and buy a new laptop soon.

Quick update:
Started two new jobs two weeks apart from each other. I work as a medical office assistant at my doctors office, and I work at the post office.
I haven't been keeping up with my work out as much as i'd like to admit. Its really hard when all you wanna do after a long day is just crawl into bed and sleep.
Like i said my computer crashed and so I have no means of blogging. I'm saving up to buy a Macbook Pro.
I've applied to go back to school in January; I'm just waiting to hear back from them.

Right now I'm about working and saving. I'm hoping by January I'll be able to see all that my hard work has given me. Until then, it's just about working hard and trusting in God.

Be Blessed

It aint over till God says it's over

I'm at a standstill right now.

I went to school to study something that I cannot stand to work. It's actually quite funny.
All my life (so far) I've been wondering what to do with myself. What was my calling, my purpose? What am I going to do for the rest of my life? Well I FINALLY got it figured out. And it didn't come influenced by anyone's pressure or cause my mom told me to. I figured it out and now I know that I want to be a nurse.
Its a great career after all, and all it takes is passion and dedication to do it. I HAVE THAT!!!

So what's my problem? The main issue: MONEY!!!

Urgh. Like I said I went to school to become a medical administrative assistant (professional title for Hospital Unit Clerk) and I was soooooooo excited when I started my program. I was a MODEL student. Staying up all night to study my medical terminology and reading up chapters. I tell you, at times I felt like I was in nursing school. I was soo happy. But now I realised that it being in school that I was excited about. Not what I was in school for. lol
I've been out of highschool for 5 years now, and finally going to college felt GREAT. I felt like my life had purpose. But now I'm right back to where I started.

Though I got a casual position working in my feild, it's NOT what I want to do. It's intimidating, and I felt so uncomfortable and useless when I was there during my training. That was in April, I called in for work since then. Now I work at a local grocery store. It's definately not as glamourous and the money isn't as good as what I would be making if I was at the hospital, but it's not killing me either.

When I went to school last year, I didn't consider nursing to be an option. Number 1: being that I didn't have any interest in it, nor did I think I would be good at it. I just didn't see myself as a nurse. And everyone always telling me to go into nursing only made me want to run for the hills even more.
But what changed my mind and my heart was studying about the body and learning the terminology. Granted it's only a glimpse of what REAL nursing is about, I was intruduced to the full grand scope of it when I went to do my practicum at a nursing unit. There I got to SEE for myself what nursing is like, what nurses do. The paper work, what the patients looked like, what they go through, what the nurses go through, EVERYTHING. And I thought, "man this aint bad, it's actually pretty cool". I was intrigued.
Spending a month in that unit changed my mind completely and now I want to go into that feild.

You see, I feel like EVERYTHING in life happens for a reason. 5 years after highschool I've finally decided on what I want to do with my life. Most people I know who when to highschool with me are done school and started on their careers. A few of them are married with kids. But I aint thinking about them lol.
My race in life begins and ends with me. I dont know how long it's going to take before I can go to nursing school or when I'm gonna be the one married with kids, but I trust GOD.
After all He is the author and finisher of my life. I have faith that everything will be alright in my life. He will supply.


Be Blessed

Laydii
Future Registed Nurse

Just came back from the gym...

I anticipate I wont be able to feel my legs in a couple of hours...

OOHHWEEE I FEEL GOOD


Blessings

No More 100

I've come to the conclusion that loosing 100lbs in a year isn't that realistic to me. I've decided to not put a time limit on my health. Instead of me focusing so much on loosing all that weight by my 25th bday, i'm gonna focus on being healthy, eating healthy and thinking healthier. It would be great if I reached my goal and I am still striving for that, but it's not the be all end all.

If I dont weigh in at 150lbs on my birthday that's fine. At least I've learned how to eat better, and gotten excited about exercise. And let's be real; this is not The Biggest Loser. I probably wont loose 100lbs in a year anyway. Most normal people who aren't on tv take years to loose that amount of weight. I am no exception.

Eating better and working out regularly will get me to where I need to be. I have faith in that.

My thighs are SCREAMING!!!

On Monday I went to the gym. I participated in a weight lifting/cardio class that TOTALLY kicked my but. And three days later I'm STILL in pain. I think I might have torn something. All I know is my thighs are hurting.

I never realised how much I utilise my thigh muscles since starting to work out. I thought other parts of my leg would hurt but NOPE just my thighs. It hurts so much I can't even walk up stairs, or walk period. It looks like I have something stuck up my butt; I image people think so when they see me coming lol.

But I love it. The pain means it's working and like they say no pain no gain.

I can't wait to go back, tomorrow maybe after work.

Blessings

The best step I've ever taken.

I went to the gym today. It wasn't as overwhelming as I thought it would be. In total I was there for 3 hours. The most time I've spent in the gym EVER!!!

I started with a cardio exercise class which was an hour. I left with a jolt in energy I haven't felt in a while. It was great. After I did 15 minutes of cardio on the bike. The rest of the time I spent getting familiar with the essential exercise equipment that will become my BEST FRIEND while loosing weight; and developing a personal health profile with a personal trainer. We didn't have time to complete, but when I go back on Thursday I'll be sure to get all the information like my total weight, my BP and heart rate, and my measurements.

Overal it was a GREAT experience. Going to a gym close to home definately helps, and going to one that is women's only is a bonus.

I'm sooo proud of myself. I hope I will remain motivated and dedicated to this. 1 year 3 months and 1 day till my goal. And many little victories while getting there.

I am Blessed!!!

The first step...

Today I start my orientation at the gym. I FINALLY summed up enough courage to join a gym and I'm nervous. It's 4am and I can't sleep.
I just watched a P90x infomercial, and I'm seriously considering doing P90x. LOL I know ur like "whoa, slow your roll girl" but I think I can. They make it look soo easy on tv (I must be loosing my mind).

I wanna loose weight before I do p90x tho. I think if I start it at my current weight, it'd be toooo hard.
I at least want to be out of the 200 before I start it. Mann, my body would loooook soooooooo good.

I close my eyes and I see the BEST version of me. The me, that I've ALWAYS wanted to be. The me that I was afraid to be. Not anymore.

I have alot of work to do. Today starts the beginning of the end of OLD me.

Be Blessed

Since you came into my life, I feel a change in me

Lately, I've been reading books about biblical womanhood and what it means to be a godly woman. It's something that I've desired to be and I'm happy that it's not just a phase. This is truely something the Lord has put on my heart to help me with my transition to "finding myseld" or becoming the woman I've always wanted to be.

Currently I'm reading a book called Radical Womanhood : Feminine Faith in a Feminist World by Carolyn McCulley. I ordered this book as well as a whole bunch on the topic of godly womanhood and other things from Amazon.ca. I LOVE to read so this is really exciting that I have new books to add to my library.

I'm almost to the middle of the book, and Im learning so much. The next book I plan on reading is the Raw Food Diet by Natalia Rose, recomended by Rochelle Hanson on FB and YTube. I can't wait.

GET THIS BOOK!!

Blessings

What's a gym?

One of my favourite episodes. Tomorrow I'm joining a gym.

Au Natural

My hair flat ironed

 Hair on Tues. blown out

damaged ends

out the shower

I cut my hair today. Inspired by Chisellecouture on youtube. What do you think?
I've been natural (no perm, no chemicals) for 4 years now. Over time my hair has gone from really healthy to well what it looked like pre-cut. I'm trying to grow my hair super long like middle of my back long. Don't think it's possible, check this lady out. She's a natural too.


Blessings.

P.S
I am soo proud of my homeland Ghana for kicking some USA butt for the World Cup. We are Ghana Black Stars, we've come soo far.

Though you are far away...

A year ago we lost you, a year later we still miss you. Rest in peace Michael.

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What's a girl to do?

The time is drawing closer and closer for me to make a final decision and pick a career. The good thing is Ive finally decided I want to be a nurse. The hard part is deciding what kind of nurse I want to be or what level of nursing I want to go to school for. You see, there is a huge demand for nurses because of the shortage, but people are realising that they can hire an LPN to do the work of an RN without paying the RN salary. It's worped but genious in a twisted cruel brilliant way. On the plus side it means alot of LPN jobs, on the negative what's an RN to do?

What's my beef you say? Well as potential nursing student, I cant decide whether I should join the bandwagon and jump on the LPN (Licensed practical nurse) train for the sake of landing a permanent full time job right after school or go all the way and be an RN and have that security knowing that my skills will be recognised and wanted whereever I go. Hmmm.... it's all about time and money with me.

I don't know I think I should think about it more.

This is the most recent picture of me, taken two weeks ago. The first photo is regular me, and the second is of what I would look like 41lbs lighter.

Lol, i dont see much of a difference either.

Blessings

A long battle to win

I used the My virtual model simulator to create my avatar. Basically from what I look like now (kinda) to what my goal weight is going to be.

Current weight 255lbs

At 200lbs

Goal weight by 11/26/11 150lbs

Final goal weight 136-130lbs

According to the BMI calculator based on my height 5'6 my ideal weight is 136lbs. But I should definately stay in the 130-154lbs range in order for me to have a healthy body weight. Well Im definately not in that range, from my calculation in very obese or morbid (how tragic). I have a long way to go. A long battle to win.

SOOOOOO F*CKIN PISSED

I dont even know what I'm mad about really. I'm just soooo pissed, and everyone is getting on my nerves. First people eat up all the food in my house and I get blamed for it. And second, I'm cramping like a mutha and nothing is making me happy. I'm sitting here eating this chocolate bar and it's providing me with temporary joy, but that's pissing me off even more because I know I shouldn't be eating this crap.

UURRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH.
This week has been one for the books for real. I started the week happy and over the moon because my country won it's first game in this year's World Cup. And then it started to go down hill, first with an interview I had two days again that I f*cked up. Urrghh, and now I'm pmsing HARD, hungry, and bored.

Urrrghhh, Lord help me deal with my hormones and help me to not lash out at anyone that I'm gonna regret later.

What a week.

GHANA

This morning my country won they're first game against Serbia in The Fifa World Cup 2010.

So yea, I'm gonna show off alittle.

Be Blessed.

(captured by Getty Images)